Exceedingly Abundantly Beyond

I had a meltdown tonight.   I started crying and I just couldn't stop.  In front of my kids... Texting to my mom... Wishing it would stop... Wishing I could go to bed for the night.   I feel better now.  I'm sitting in the living room listening to my kids play Uno in the kitchen.  It's rather peaceful.  But an hour ago it wasn't.  I bawled in the living room while Aida told me all the ways I'm so wonderful, Christian tried to distract me with a rousing game of "Go Fish" and the little boys duked it out with curtain rods in the driveway. I have a hard time moving forward when I start to feel overwhelmed and depressed.  And by "hard time" I mean "totally paralyzed".  I know that I need to do things.  I may even know specifically what needs to be done.  But I cannot force myself to do it.   Today my mom and I cleaned in my living room so that it can be painted.  I have been hoping (dare I say counting on) some outside help to...

A while back I decided to make a quilt for Derick. Let me back up... April 1, Derick left the United States, heading to Afghanistan.  He was required to bring his sleeping bag.  On his last deployment, he used his sleeping bag every night.   After he arrived and got settled in, he told me that he had purchased cheap bedding from the closest Exchange to use on his bed.  He said he had a real bed, not just a cot.  And he would like for me to send him something better.    We shopped on Amazon together.   As an aside, it was actually a quite enjoyable way to shop together.  I hate shopping.  I hate making decisions.  But, it was fun browsing the same website, but different items.  It was great being able to send links back and forth to see.  I highly recommend it for people that don't enjoy going to the mall. Anyway, we shopped on Amazon together.  I ordered what I thought he would like and had it shipped directly to him....

I haven't blogged for a while.  I'll be honest, it's because I've really been lonely and depressed.  Who wants to read about loneliness and depression!?  So, rather than whine and complain about what's wrong, I'll just give you an update on life in general. * My air conditioner broke in July.  Thankfully it hasn't been too hot this summer! It finally got fixed about a week ago.  I am planning to have the ducts cleaned this week, as well.  Hopefully, it will work even more efficiently after that!  * My washing machine also broke in July.  I did laundry at my parent's house or at my brother's house. Someone came right away, and did what he thought would fix it.  No such luck.  After a month of no washer, someone else came and did what he thought would fix it.  Still no luck.  The second repairman came back right away, when I realized it still wasn't working, and broke the news...  It's the motherboard. It would cost me a gra...