Exceedingly Abundantly Beyond

I had a meltdown tonight.   I started crying and I just couldn't stop.  In front of my kids... Texting to my mom... Wishing it would stop... Wishing I could go to bed for the night.   I feel better now.  I'm sitting in the living room listening to my kids play Uno in the kitchen.  It's rather peaceful.  But an hour ago it wasn't.  I bawled in the living room while Aida told me all the ways I'm so wonderful, Christian tried to distract me with a rousing game of "Go Fish" and the little boys duked it out with curtain rods in the driveway. I have a hard time moving forward when I start to feel overwhelmed and depressed.  And by "hard time" I mean "totally paralyzed".  I know that I need to do things.  I may even know specifically what needs to be done.  But I cannot force myself to do it.   Today my mom and I cleaned in my living room so that it can be painted.  I have been hoping (dare I say counting on) some outside help to...

I have nothing to write about.   Hmm...  I've been having a tough time lately.  So, I thought I'd blog about it.  Ya know... air my dirty laundry and all.  Everyone loves a nice, depressing blog.  I think it makes people feel better about their own lives to see someone else struggling.  Or maybe  we just crave honesty sometimes. Well, gather 'round and get a good look!   I'll be honest, I've been struggling... I miss Derick so much it hurts!   I miss waking up early to go make coffee for us in the morning. I miss his arms around my waist and a kiss on my neck when he gets home from work, as I stand at the stove making dinner. I miss the bed being warm. I miss going to the grocery store without having to give a list of instructions for the kids while I'm gone, just to make sure the house will still be standing and all the kids will still be alive when I return.   Actually, I miss just sending him to the store so I don't have to go. ...

Some of you may have read my post about my tattoo.  Here is an extended version of why I got a tattoo and what it means to me.  I hope you enjoy it! Update July 12, 2014 - Since the embedded video isn't working on mobile devices, here is a link to watch it on YouTube.  https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FDyc0FqxpAA Sorry about that!

Last night I finished the quilt that I've been working on.  It's actually the first quilt that I've ever made.  I've done quite a bit of sewing.  Purses, shirts, curtains, aprons, etc... But quilts have other details that I'd never considered in my "sewing-only" projects. There is a lot of hand detail that is very time consuming!  I've had a lot of inquiries as to how much I charge.  After much consideration, I've come to a decision. The base price for a t-shirt quilt is $15 per shirt/block plus the cost of supplies.  (And, I get to help make the final decision when it comes to the fabrics used, besides the t-shirts.) I had, at first, wanted that to include the cost of supplies.  But, after realizing the time involved in making the quilt, and researching the variation in price of different fabrics and things, I think this is a better way.   So, here is the finished quilt. And here is another shot, close up, of the yarn ties that I did. At the abov...